I want to tap into my ethereal-ness.
I struggle with saying the word as an English major. I know what it means though.
e·the·re·al — extremely light, delicate, almost heavenly… like something too perfect for this world.
seems too perfect for this world.
I have made the conscious decision to not retwist my hair until my birthday! June 1st. I want to try and genuinely do it. I’m noticing my roots being a little stretched out. Almost micro loc looking! I do not like that! I want to allow my hair to be in its natural state. I will style in between. I don’t know why I have become so obsessed with the clean parts and how it looks. I feel like running has caused me to be that way because my hair will be dirty, but I do not have to retwist every time I wash it!
I feel like with the weather warming up a good wash and air dry would be lovely!
I wrote today! I even edited some other chapters too! I think I have a perfect foundation for a solid novel or series!
I want this so bad I need to get going on it! The ARC I read was confirmation that that shit is so doable. His format is smack like mine! It’s so simple and yet I have had such imposter syndrome. I have got to do better. I am proud of myself though, I have to give myself a break. Writing isn’t my only job. Even though I wish one day it could be! I have had a busy few months at work, for sure. I guess it’s like when I’m in my reading slumps. Writing slumps have to be the equivalent. That’s fine because I am very proud of what I have thus far and the many ideas I have been thinking to add. We shall see!
I posted on my socials today too! I consumed and I produced content today. I put out there that I’m not retwisting my hair and that’s partially because of accountability. I might even make it a series!! This is pushing me to do more styles too. I just may have to do them the night before or wake up early enough to get them cute for the work day. Good thing the school year is about to end.
Yet, I’m looking for a second job. I need something to occupy my time and give me social interaction. The extra money wouldn’t be bad either. I just can’t go back to night life. That shit is for the birds! Respectfully. I have been a D-League bottle girl. It just isn’t for me. I’ve gotten too accustomed to getting off at 2pm every day. I need that! So, I applied to a few brunch places! This would also give me some other form of social interaction as I do NOT talk to my current co-workers. It’s no shade to them. I’m just talking to teenagers all day. The extra money wouldn’t be bad either. I am trying to go back to school! That’s not going to pay for itself. I have to make something shake! I know I don’t want to do summer school though! I legit can’t! It’s no fun! Just something to do really. Able to interact and have conversations. I’ve been kind of in an isolation period. I want to get out of it and this can be a temporary fix and I can earn an extra income. It’s a win-win.
I did yoga for the first time in a long time and I felt amazing about it. I know it helps me a great deal. It always has. Yet, I fail to do it most nights before bed. I’ve been running to it here lately! That had to mean I needed it. I’ll get back into it for sure. I want to be so ethereal.
Once I finish this next 12 week year… I’m going to get that shit tatted on me.
On the back of my thigh, right under the cheek! I want to embody this newness within.
I feel like I am becoming her.
The Her I want to be.
The Her my mommy would be proud of.
I’m running.
Applying to second jobs.
Applying to go back to school.
Signing my son up for kindergarten.
Writing more.
Reading more.
Working on me, for me!
I love this for me!